spiders and God

I saw this beauty in the garden today and spent probably fifteen minutes in the gusting wind to photograph him. I got three particularly good shots.

As I photographed him I pondered the ugly side of spiders and I have to admit that sometimes spiders creep me out too, even if I do find them fascinating and take an immoderate number of photographs of them.

As I got close for the last few shots, it occurred to me that one of the reasons I find spiders creepy is their focus on the task at hand and how little they care about me. They are indifferent to me.

As I thought about how disturbing it is not to even be a blip on his radar, I realized lots of people feel that way about God. They believe that we aren't even a blip on His radar. No wonder they are scared of Him. Sometimes, I think, not mattering is more frightening than being opposed to someone.

Then it occurred to me that we often act like the spider. We spin our little webs, live in our little universe intent on catching our flies, and God isn't even a blip on our radar screen. I wonder how He feels about that.

Ouch. Either way indifference is frightening.